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by Wing Lam Chan for The 44 North, Guest Writer



“Where are you from?”


A typical icebreaker question that everyone comes across.


My only answer would be “Hong Kong,” since I was born and raised there. Period. However, my identity tends to be flattened in a sentence—“So you’re from China”—if the questioner is not familiar with Hong Kong’s historical dynamics or holds a political stance. I always feel a need to justify my identity in this unilateral box; likewise, I’m gagged with papers and evidence that state Hong Kong is a special administrative region of China. The simple question becomes a drowning debate.


Speaking has never been my strength, but drawing is. So, on faith and belief, I propelled myself with a stylus pen in the ocean, exploring the fragmented storytelling of local identity. Eventually, I came up with seven eerie illustrations that reimagine Hong Kong urban legends—Borrowed Absurdity.


Wing at GradEX, next to her collected work, Borrowed Absurdity
Wing at GradEX, next to her collected work, Borrowed Absurdity

The title Borrowed Absurdity comprises two elements: The impermanence throughout Hong Kong’s trajectory and urban legends. The term “borrowed” is inspired by the quote from Richard Hughes that describes Hong Kong’s uncertain socio-political landscape between 1960 and 1970: 


“A borrowed place, on borrowed time.” 


The quote captures the city as a fragmented land amid temporary colonial existence since 1841: The British occupied both Hong Kong Island and Kowloon, and for 99 years, obtained a lease of the New Territories, later interrupted by Japanese occupation for three years and eight months. Although Hong Kong was transferred to Chinese sovereignty and established as a Special Administrative Region in 1997—with the exercise of “One country, two systems” maintaining its own capitalist economy, legal system, education and language—this autonomy will expire in 2047. The land perpetuates “borrowed,” and so do the social anxieties embedded within it.


Interestingly, urban legends also possess such instability, with their doubtful credibility and evolving versions of the story often intended for thrilling entertainment or warning about certain behaviours across time. By recontextualizing them and layering the collective fear with historical backdrops, Borrowed Absurdity aims to initiate discourse on identity, precarity and resistance against assimilation.


The Braid Girl & The Ghost Postman


The Braid Girl by Wing Lam Chan: It is said that the long-braided spirit was once a rural girl fleeing from mainland China to Hong Kong. Driven by the immigration policy, she tied her Hong Kong dream into her braid and boarded a train toward the city. Mistaking a passing station for the final stop, she abandoned everything behind and jumped prematurely. Her reckless leap marked the tragic end of her journey.
The Braid Girl by Wing Lam Chan: It is said that the long-braided spirit was once a rural girl fleeing from mainland China to Hong Kong. Driven by the immigration policy, she tied her Hong Kong dream into her braid and boarded a train toward the city. Mistaking a passing station for the final stop, she abandoned everything behind and jumped prematurely. Her reckless leap marked the tragic end of her journey.

The series begins with a dual nightmare shared by Mainland refugees and the local community. During the 60s, struggle sessions emerged within the Chinese Communist movement’s “Great Leap Forward.” Farmers were mandated to undertake industrial work and lost autonomy over their land, leading to severe famine and deaths by persecution. Meanwhile, Hong Kong was not only under British colonial rule, but regarded as one of the most prosperous cities. To attract more cheap labour, the British Hong Kong government pitched the “Touch Base” Policy—an immigration policy that grants residency to Mainlanders who successfully reached the city. Countless Mainlanders were sent running across a risky baseball field towards the life-changing base called Hong Kong, often on moving trains. The Braid Girl demonstrates this plight. Braiding her hope towards the escape, the braid becomes her stumbling block—a force that motivates her while distorting her body. As it tightens against the moving train, her face is split in two, and with it, her imagined future and possibilities collapse. 


The Ghost Postman by Wing Lam Chan: It is said that a ghostly postman unlocked gates and slipped blank letters into the Wan Chai neighbourhood. Those who receive the letters are doomed to die within days. As death accumulates, fear seeps into restless nights.
The Ghost Postman by Wing Lam Chan: It is said that a ghostly postman unlocked gates and slipped blank letters into the Wan Chai neighbourhood. Those who receive the letters are doomed to die within days. As death accumulates, fear seeps into restless nights.

The tragedies continue to fall upon local communities. Hong Kong has faced prolonged overpopulation since World War II, aggravated by the influx of Mainland refugees under the “Touch Base” Policy. With rising social tension, the seeds of fear and antipathy were sown, marking the expanding division between locals and outsiders in the future. While The Braid Girl reflects the refugee’s tragic experiences, The Ghost Postman shifts to a local perspective, depicting the suppressed, collective anxiety of overpopulation. The postman, as an embodiment of the outsider, slips through the gates and grates the community’s nerves alongside increasing death and disaster. 



The Haunted School & The Convenience House


The Haunted School by Wing Lam Chan: It is said that the abandoned Tat Tak School is haunted by spirits of Indigenous New Territories inhabitants killed by British and Japanese troops. Buried within a nearby mass grave, they wander through the ruined classrooms searching for their seats among nameless gravestones and rubble.
The Haunted School by Wing Lam Chan: It is said that the abandoned Tat Tak School is haunted by spirits of Indigenous New Territories inhabitants killed by British and Japanese troops. Buried within a nearby mass grave, they wander through the ruined classrooms searching for their seats among nameless gravestones and rubble.

As someone born under Chinese sovereignty, I always feel distant from British colonization and Japanese occupation. The history is either compressed into a list or neglected in education, not to mention the disappearing Indigenous people (Punti, Hakka, Tanka, and Hoklo) in rural New Territories. Land, to Indigenous people, is not only property but also a means of preserving lineage, fengshui, and sustained livelihoods. They maintained village autonomy under the Chinese imperial system, yet foreign rulers took over their land rights against the traditional practice, provoking counterattacks such as the Six-Day war. Confronted by well-trained troops with advanced weapons, hundreds of native people were sacrificed; their deaths remain unrecorded, fading within their own land and memory. In contrast to the legends of Tat Tak School, which relate to malevolent spirits or the deadly consequences of adventurers, The Haunted School examines haunting in a decolonial framework. As the spirits return to school and collect their own desks, their contours consolidate gradually, reclaiming their presence throughout historical erasure in the classroom setting.


The Convenience House by Wing Lam Chan: It is said that an unsettling hospice lies hidden among the stilt houses in Tai O, once serving as a burial site for dying elders whose bodies were never reclaimed by their families. Within this dreadful space, an elderly man rests while imagining himself as a tilapia—an invasive species brought from the Mainland—drifting among the local fisheries of the village.
The Convenience House by Wing Lam Chan: It is said that an unsettling hospice lies hidden among the stilt houses in Tai O, once serving as a burial site for dying elders whose bodies were never reclaimed by their families. Within this dreadful space, an elderly man rests while imagining himself as a tilapia—an invasive species brought from the Mainland—drifting among the local fisheries of the village.

The unstable land once failed to preserve the home for Indigenous New Territories inhabitants; nevertheless, becomes a lifelong shelter for others. The Convenience House is set in Tai O, a traditional fishing village inhabited by Tanka people and well known for its stilt houses above water. Located in the Pearl River Estuary where it meets the South China Sea, it also became a migration passage for Mainlanders crossing the water during the Cultural Revolution. Unlike the scenic stilt houses, “The Convenience House”—a single-story, tiled-roof hospice— hides in the shadows and is lived in by dying elders, often those whose bodies were refused repatriation by their families due to taboo. Amid flowing water and life, the “Convenience House” becomes a rigid support for the drifting man, as if a tilapia adapting to new water and becoming part of nature after death among local fisheries. This portrays an inexplicable calm settling upon unstable land shaped by a sojourner mentality.


The Mah-jong Demise & The Parallel Station


The Mah-jong Demise by Wing Lam Chan: It is said that four gamblers died while playing mah-jong after forming four tiles with the character “West” (which sounds similar to “death” in Chinese).
The Mah-jong Demise by Wing Lam Chan: It is said that four gamblers died while playing mah-jong after forming four tiles with the character “West” (which sounds similar to “death” in Chinese).

The Parallel Station by Wing Lam Chan: It is said that a salaryman became trapped within the same station on his journey home, as if he had entered a parallel world.
The Parallel Station by Wing Lam Chan: It is said that a salaryman became trapped within the same station on his journey home, as if he had entered a parallel world.

The year 1984 marked a significant milestone in Hong Kong—the UK and China signed the Sino-British Joint Declaration, marking the end of 156 years of British colonial rule and the handover to Chinese sovereignty in 1997. Hongkongers had no say in the decision. Witnessing the influences of the Chinese Communist Party, rather than celebration, Hong Kong society was rampant with mistrust and disappointment towards the decision.  Irreversible fate and stillness is depicted in both The Mah-jong Demise and The Parallel Station—either extending time through indulgence in gambling and drugs, or travelling on a Möbius track with contradictory directional signs, everything lost in directions but a gloomy future. Authority over land and life persists across time.


The Submerging Turtle


The Submerging Turtle by Wing Lam Chan: It is said that a giant turtle deity lives within the mountains and descends gradually each year. Once it reaches the sea, the city will collapse into a violent red ocean.
The Submerging Turtle by Wing Lam Chan: It is said that a giant turtle deity lives within the mountains and descends gradually each year. Once it reaches the sea, the city will collapse into a violent red ocean.

A visitor asked me, “Shouldn’t the turtle be happy as it returns to the ocean where it belongs?” Ideally, yes, only if the ocean has not been contaminated. Since the 1997 handover, conflicts between Hong Kong and China have been intensified through repressions of culture, economy, politics, and the legal system. Back in elementary school, I remember that Putonghua (standard Beijing Mandarin) was taught as the medium in Chinese Language Education, dividing students into two groups: Putonghua applied to the “elite” class, while Cantonese (the primary spoken language in Hong Kong) was for the “academically inferior” one. Following perpetual measures on the Hong Kong-Mainland relationship and demonstrations, including the 2014 Umbrella Revolution and the 2019 Anti-Extradition Law Amendment Bill Movement, the Chinese government ultimately decided to silence the crowd with national security laws that erode freedom of speech. Throughout the decades, from ripple to rogue wave, from language to internal affairs, Hong Kong was dragged toward assimilation in stages. If they abide by the “One Country, Two Systems” promise and respect the dynamic Hong Kong identity, I believe Hongkongers will feel less reluctant to embrace this “mother ocean.”


Borrowed Absurdity by Wing Lam Chan
Borrowed Absurdity by Wing Lam Chan

Borrowed Absurdity presents assembled fragments of Hong Kong lived experience rather than a map of Hong Kong’s history or a complete portrait of Hongkongers, often featuring Mainlanders, spirits/creatures, and distorted space. Shaped by the fusion of Chinese and Western influences, Hong Kong identity suggests a sense of fluidity. It’s not about ethnicity or holding residency but about adapting the language and shared values. If you called Hong Kong home, you are a Hongkonger.


The series ends, but my story certainly doesn’t. Perhaps it offers an entrance to the far shoreline before people dive into the water. Perhaps the landscape has changed beyond recognition before people get to know it. Never will submersion be the final ending for Hong Kong—hope floats, always through collective storytelling.


About Wing Lam Chan

Bio Portrait by Wing Lam Chan
Bio Portrait by Wing Lam Chan

Wing Lam Chan (泳 Wing (@lamc_illust)) is a Hong Kong digital illustrator based in Toronto and a recent graduate of the Illustration (BDES) program at OCAD University.


Wing’s practice blends Eastern and Western storytelling through editorial and sequential illustration, using symbolism and emotional narratives to explore themes of culture, identity, and memory. She is drawn to the quiet moments embedded in everyday life, visualizing them through a surrealist art style. Wing believes storytelling can amplify community voices, reconstruct marginalized narratives, and foster empathy and shared humanity.



by Mikaela Brewer for The 44 North, Senior Editor


Prints by Capsule Community


A few years ago, in the fall of 2024, I wrote a pantoum about the moon for the very first issue of Capsule, Stories & Starlight, published in December 2024:


Months before I wrote this poem, I’d followed Capsule’s Instagram page, a nourishing collection of posts to taste and savour rather than consume in one bite. I felt a sense of disruption—rest and ease—each time I encountered their work, even on a screen. In practice, I saw what social media could be


If “To be truly radical is to make hope possible rather than despair convincing,” as Raymond Williams says, then disruption has more than one necessary definition in the fight; it can replenish hope.


Capsule’s social media presence is a tapestry of literature, climate sustainability ethos, decolonial frameworks, artwork, and more. They turn each square into a patch, and their grid into a quilt rooted in storytelling that changes perception and lives. Their work influences popular culture and shifts public opinion, all stitched to a vital core: Stories as community. 


“As a creative consultancy and agency, deeply passionate about and focused on climate and sustainability, we are storytellers, creatives, activists and artists who leverage our creative skills and talents to boost climate narratives, encourage sustainable systems and outcomes, and help foster stronger connections to nature and the planet.” 

—Sabaah Choudhary & Misha Dhanoolal, Capsule Community Curators & Editors

Beyond Capsule’s digital quiltwork, the idea for a print publication brought together the threads of art, nature, and community. 


“We loved toying with the concept of leveraging our platform as a space to create and inspire, for our own unique voices and ethos, but also for our community. There are so many talented writers, thinkers, artists and storytellers in our communities with little or no access to platforms to tell their stories and share their ideas and work.”


Stories & Starlight, where my poem appeared, leaned on the themes of winter and the light we find at night. It featured several poems, art, and photography from members of the Capsule Community across North America. 


Sabah and Misha also design “Prints for Palestine,” featuring plants and words from the ever-brilliant James Baldwin and Mahmoud Darwish (two of my all-time favourite writers—check out “Untitled” by James Baldwin and “Think Of Others” by Mahmoud Darwish). 


Coming in August 2025, Capsule’s Summer zine, in collaboration with the Toronto Flower Market, will be available. You can pre-order it now


“Collaborating with the Toronto Flower Market was an ideal next step, and our way to truly walk the walk of creating a community zine; where spaces and ideas are shared, and different communities are connected, taking our smaller community circles and creating an even larger one. Community is the anecdote to scarcity, and we dream of a world where community, connection and art are a never-ending source of abundance.”


This issue blooms beyond the rebirth of past issues, reminiscent of summer daydreaming with the Earth’s sense of play, love, exhilaration, and creation. 


“In Mother Nature's maximalist season, we find so much inspiration for art and connection—to nature and each other.”

About Capsule Community

The Summer 2026 issue of Capsule Zine
The Summer 2026 issue of Capsule Zine

At Capsule, we believe that storytelling is one of the most powerful tools for influence and change. Stories change perception, lives, move popular culture and can shift public opinion. As a creative consultancy and agency, deeply passionate about and focused on climate and sustainability, we are storytellers, creatives, activists and artists who leverage our creative skills and talents to boost climate narratives, encourage sustainable systems and outcomes, and help foster stronger connections to nature and the planet.


—Capsule Community Website


Connect with Sabaah, Misha, and Capsule Community on their website and Instagram.



by Mikaela Brewer for The 44 North

Senior Editor


Photo of Feels Zine’s “Sexy” issue by Melissa Blackall
Photo of Feels Zine’s “Sexy” issue by Melissa Blackall
“[Q]ueer romances have far fewer representations in the media, and often the ones we do aren’t written by us, and are rooted in pain and trauma. This, for me, is a huge part of why I believe queer love stories are so important to share–because seeing ourselves represented gives those of us who don’t yet feel safe or seen a place to have their experiences reflected back and honoured.”

Editor's Note: Recently, I had a chance to speak with the co-founders of a zine I've long admired. We chatted all things queer love, romance, reclaiming sexiness, and more! Please check out their newest issue, "Hunger," and many others here. —Mikaela


The 44 North (44N): Firstly, before we begin, could you share why you started something like Feels Zine? How do you, your families, ancestors, community, politics, and values braid into your work on these zines? Where/how would you like folks to witness/experience this when spending time with the zines' pages? Is there anything you hope people pay particular attention to? Take action with/from?

Feels Zine (FZ): FEELS started with a dream and a friendship! Hannah, our co-founder and creative director, has worked in magazine design for a long time, but always wanted to have her own. Sarah, the co-founder and editor, is a social worker by trade and a big fan of talking about feelings. After visiting the Toronto Art Book Fair about a decade ago, we made the decision to take the leap and try making our own.


Thematically, it comes from a couple of decades of friendship centred around a deep comfort with each other discussing challenging feelings in a culture that does not always support or encourage it. It is also deeply political in nature, focusing on justice, community care, and storytelling. 


In terms of experiencing FEELS, one thing we’ve really loved is hearing the vast array of rituals people who consume it seem to have that are very personal to them. Just like feelings! We want people to sit with the content in a way that feels most true to them. The content is emotional and often challenging, and we want that to feel as safe as possible. 


Co-founders Hannah (left) and Sarah (right) at a booth offering Feels Zine issues
Co-founders Hannah (left) and Sarah (right) at a booth offering Feels Zine issues

44N: I love that your publication is about feelings. More specifically, I admire the message that our inner worlds aren't necessarily safest when kept private. As you say, "Having an open dialogue about what’s going on inside of us can foster meaningful connection and make us feel less alone, especially in the social-media era that asks us to curate and polish our lives and feelings before sharing them—if we share them at all." When you began curating & creating zines like "Sexy" and your "Queer Romance Mini Zine," I'd love to know how you thought about representing feelings, especially since so many other emotions are present & connected to queer sex positivity, health, and safety. How did these two zines, in particular, fit into the fabric of what Feels Zine is & hopes to do?

FZ: With those issues in particular, we wanted to move away from media representations of what it means to be sexy, or what queer romance looks like, and shift the focus back onto how it actually looks in our lives—far messier and more nuanced, but also more real. As a queer person (Sarah here, so speaking for myself), I’ve always found myself disappointed in the majority of representations of queer love and sex—so much so that when I find something I connect to, I won’t shut up about it and am so excited about it. I felt that way in receiving the submissions for those issues—so thrilled to see experiences that might look different from my subjective experiences, but also so similar in the feelings and the authenticity in them. I think this is really the epitome of what we want FEELS to be—a space for something we feel in our guts as true to life.


44N: Issue 18, "Sexy," explored feeling sexy, worth, and desire. Safe, positive sex & sexiness can empower us, as you say, and should be something to celebrate! Across the work included in this zine, how did you curate/capture this beautiful balance of feeling sexy—not only re: sex, but also in how we show up in the world? 

FZ: One thing that people may not know about our process is that, once we put out a call for submissions with our overarching mission statement, we really let the submissions we receive guide the final product. We work hard to curate that mission statement to touch on different viewpoints and angles to a feeling and not lock in on any one element. But at the end of the day, the most important component is how people relate to that statement and that feeling. As much as it would be nice for our egos to say we captured all that, the truth is, the contributors did that work. We also worked hard to curate submissions that explored the spectrum of how sexiness shows up for us—in ourselves, with others, with the world, and how we communicate about it. We don’t want to showcase just one type of experience—we want as many unique experiences as possible.


The front cover of Feels Zine’s “Sexy” issue
The front cover of Feels Zine’s “Sexy” issue

44N: Your "Queer Romance Mini Zine" explored queer romance as an act of resistance & resilience, creating intentional space for queer love stories. I so admire this. And in conversation with what we've been discussing: romance, love, and desire aren't insufficient without sex, of course! Intimacy beyond sex is a vital part of queer love stories, and I'd love to know how this mini zine approached queer romance beyond or alongside sex?

FZ: The complementing mini zines are a concept we’ve used a few times over the years, and come straight from the submissions we receive. Every once in a while, when we’re curating an issue and reviewing submissions, a related but distinct emotion or topic jumps out at us that necessitates space-making. As we worked through our Pride Issue submissions, this became very clear as a topic that was resonating with a lot of people, and a huge component of their subjective queer identities. Romance can involve sex for a lot of people, but it isn’t a necessary component, and we hope that that rings true in the overall storytelling of the Queer Romance mini zine. 


The other thing I would note, which I mentioned above, is that queer romances have far fewer representations in the media, and often the ones we do aren’t written by us, and are rooted in pain and trauma. This, for me, is a huge part of why I believe queer love stories are so important to share–because seeing ourselves represented gives those of us who don’t yet feel safe or seen a place to have their experiences reflected back and honoured.


The front cover of Feels Zine’s “Queer Romance” mini zine
The front cover of Feels Zine’s “Queer Romance” mini zine
About Feels Zine

A collage of Feels Zine issues
A collage of Feels Zine issues

Feels is a publication about feelings. It is a place to explore, to share, and to be honest. Having an open dialogue about what’s going on inside of us can foster meaningful connection and make us feel less alone, especially in the social-media era that asks us to curate and polish our lives and feelings before sharing them — if we share them at all. Feels believes there are no good or bad feelings — the value comes from how we relate to them, how we experience them, and what we learn from them.


Feels believes in inclusion and recognizes that certain voices have been given the lion’s share of the spotlight throughout history. Our pages are for everyone. We are a feminist, sex-positive, 2SLGBTQ*, anti-racist, anti-colonial publication.


—Feels Zine Instagram & website

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