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by Abbigale Kernya, ​for The 44 North

Managing Editor


The book cover of Everything Is Tuberculosis by John Green
The book cover of Everything Is Tuberculosis by John Green



Genre: Non-Fiction


“It reminded me that when we know about suffering, when we are proximal to it, we are capable of extraordinary generosity. We can do and be so much for each other. But only when we see one another in our full humanity. Not as statistics or problems, but as people who deserve to be alive in the world.”


― John Green, Everything Is Tuberculosis
“Nothing is so privileged as thinking history belongs to the past.”

Lately, I’ve been thinking about COVID. 


But I still skip every episode from whatever TV show in 2020 where a pandemic invades the static screen. I don’t want to talk about it, and yes, I also can’t believe it happened. 


Sometimes I’m catapulted five years ago in the smallest of places: Standing on the crusted six-feet-apart footprints scuffed on the grocery store floor, or a blue mask snagged on a trash bin, or even the sharp moment of panic when a stranger sneezes on the bus.


Despite all my shoving and pushing it down into a crevice of my memory, the pandemic still happened, and we are still living through it. I still think about it, even when I don’t want to.


John Green is the first person to untangle my stress ball of past anxiety and future confusion about illness into one tidy book. It fundamentally changed my life. Everything is Tuberculosis follows the illness (or, “consumption,” as it was so often glorified as a beautiful wasting disease of the rich and privileged) through the threads of class and capitalism in the past centuries. Green weaves us through the romanticization of the “white man’s disease” to now, where the raging class disparities around the globe ignite the fire for consumption to not only rage on, but fuel humanitarian crises like gasoline on a brush fire.


What took this book (by no means a solely historical textbook) from a simple Crash Course about disease to a commentary on beauty and capitalism was Green’s account of travelling to Sierra Leone to see first-hand how a disease—that was once considered desirable for its beauty and attraction to upper-class intelligence—is now the beacon for a humanitarian crisis. 


In a calling card to end the disparity between the tuberculosis (TB) crisis and access to medication and vaccines, Green details the story of a little boy, Henry, treated in a Sierra Leone hospital. A hospital it may have been, but one much different from the one you and I and John are familiar with. One that is denied access to life-saving medicine. One that is impoverished by colonialism, past and present, and one where children die of an easily curable disease for the sole reason that they were born in a country that the rest of the world turned a blind eye to.


Green details his relationship with Henry throughout the book, from innocent childlike wonder to recounting stories of Henry’s family, where disease and poverty have taken more than just his childhood. Despite the catastrophic humanitarian crisis invading Henry’s lungs, he is hopeful. He is brave, and he fundamentally changes Green’s life. 


The othering of the ill is not something special to our tiny pocket in time, but rather a telltale sign of how disease is treated based on class, race, and access to medicine. From belladonna’s use in the 1800s as a cosmetic to mimic the pale, feverish look of consumption, to the vilification of TB when poor marginalized communities fell victim, to the current rise of unnatural thinness that plagues the beauty standard of our post-COVID society. Everything is connected, and everything is curable.


To paraphrase perhaps my favourite line in the entire book: Where there is a humanitarian crisis, you will find TB. Where there is poverty and colonialism and people stuck under the boot of centuries of oppression, you will find TB. This disease does not compromise on its victims; it does not judge or offer plea deals. Instead, we as humans are the sole perpetrators of the thousands and thousands of deaths every year from this entirely curable disease. It is when humans fail to act, or don’t care, or put profit over human lives, that TB will show up.


It is hard for me to briefly explain how much of an impact this book had on not only my relationship to illness, but also how I view the world. Green makes an excellent argument throughout the entire book that there is no reason that humans should die of a disease like TB. There is no logical reason that in a world where humans have gone to space and built electric cars that even one human life dies from an entirely preventable illness. In that case, tuberculosis is not a disease of medicine, but rather a disease of human empathy and the cavern standing between suffering and power.


Everything is Tuberculosis is as gentle with human spirit as it is fundamentally important to understanding the politics of human suffering. From tender-hearted stories of compassion and generosity, to a century-long study into illness as a catalyst for global misunderstanding of what it means to be alive. 

by Mikaela Brewer for The 44 North

Senior Editor


Mikaela Brewer (left) playing college basketball
Mikaela Brewer (left) playing college basketball
"It’s not trans women who are the threat—it’s a surveillance-based, misogynist patriarchy. It’s never been about who’s playing the sport—it’s about which men have policing and decision-making power across women’s sports. It’s not about fairness at all. It’s about maintaining a culture of control under the guise of fairness."

As a white, cisgender woman, I had biological advantages playing basketball. But no one threatened my right or ability to exist because of it. I was a bit of a nuisance on the basketball court—in the best way. I’m ~5’10” (probably closer to 6’0” in basketball shoes), but my wingspan is over 6’2,” and I could borrow my 6’4” teammates’ jeans. On defence, I deflected many passes that the other team’s point guard didn’t think I could reach or get to in time. But I did. With such long arms and legs—a “biological advantage”—why didn’t I have to prove my gender to play for Stanford University or Team Canada? Because what’s happening to trans women in sports right now isn’t about biological advantage. It’s about policing women’s bodies. And it always has been.


For our July/August 2024 issue at The 44 North, I wrote a short story titled Hope Tracks, a fictional narrative about two high school students, siblings Lena and Sam, as they prepare for track season. One morning, before their first run of the upcoming school year, the two confront one another in their family kitchen—one sibling is a trans woman, and the other’s curiosity isn’t neutral. The story explores mental health, community, activism, friendships, misinformation, family, high school, and racism. I’d love for you to read it, especially now as trans people—particularly women and non-binary athletes—are violently and invasively attacked and investigated. It’s a vehement myth that this isn’t happening in Canada. It very much is.


Via CBC News: Alberta’s new ban on trans women athletes (12+) will not only require schools, universities and sports clubs to exclude and bar trans women and girls from competing, but report and investigate—via the athlete’s sex on their birth records—eligibility complaints to the government, including the results of the challenge. This ban impacts nearly 90 sports organizations in Alberta. It requires an athlete’s parent or guardian to “confirm in writing that the athlete qualifies under the law to play in a female league.” Boards will be encouraged and empowered to impose “reasonable sanctions” against any “bad faith” challenges launched.


Alberta’s United Conservative Party government says the ban seeks to safeguard the “integrity of female athletic competitions by ensuring women and girls have the opportunity to compete in "biological female-only divisions.”” Further, Linda Blade, a coach and former president of Athletics Alberta, said the ban is “not anti trans, it's not anti-anything. It's pro-women.” Please read more here: Birth records will be key in Alberta's new ban on female trans athletes, regulations show (CBC News), Alberta’s transgender ban in sports exempts visiting out-of-province athletes (Global News), Liberal government 'monitoring' Alberta law banning trans athletes from female sports (National Post). 


These regulations are immeasurably harmful and violent. And they’re not at all “pro women.” In Hope Tracks, Lena shares a quote from Schuyler Bailar, the first trans D1 NCAA men’s athlete: 


“People often forget that in order to exclude trans women, you must police all bodies in the women’s category. Any girl or woman can be accused of being transgender. At what point is a girl “too good,” “too masculine,” or “too tall,” or “too strong,” or “too fast” to be accused of being trans? The attempt to exclude trans women is the legal enforcement of the policing of all women’s bodies. And this disproportionately affects those of colour, especially Black women and girls who already suffer anti-Blackness and misogyny (misogynoir) and are often portrayed as not woman enough due to white supremacy. Ask yourself: Who is ‘woman enough?’ The inclusion of trans girls in girls’ sports does not threaten girls’ sports. Instead, the exclusion of trans girls leads to the destruction of girls’ sport through the enforcement of misogynistic and racist standards of girls’ bodies.”


Further, Violet Stanza’s video excellently and thoughtfully notes that research on “biological advantage,” often applied to sports, comes from the military. Via military data, after two years on HRT, trans women raced the mile similarly to cis women, and after four years, matched max sit-ups in a minute. 


Importantly, Stanza asked another question that haunts me: will we only accept trans women in sports if they’re not competitive—if they’re ‘bad?’ Is this what we should be telling trans women—and because this fight isn’t about who is more ‘pro-women’—all women? That they should only ever aspire to mediocrity so as not to be ‘transvestigated?’ 


There will always be biological advantages in sports—height, weight, wingspan, shoulder width, etc. And truthfully, the real threat is embedded in the anti-trans rhetoric and catch phrase: “Keep men out of women’s sports.” It’s not trans women who are the threat—it’s a surveillance-based, misogynist patriarchy. It’s never been about who’s playing the sport—it’s about which men have policing and decision-making power across women’s sports. It’s not about fairness at all. It’s about maintaining a culture of control under the guise of fairness.


So let me answer Schuyler’s question: when did I feel afraid or threatened? It was when my sexuality was pried into, my food intake monitored, or my body fat and weight weaponized. It was when I was reminded of my ‘selfish’ choice to clash being an athlete with being an ‘acceptable’ woman, ‘jeopardizing’ motherhood. It’s each of these wrapping around our throats, choking what women can do and who women can be into such a thin straw that it becomes a feeding tube. We may have forgotten it’s there because we can’t taste it, thinking we’re safe and protected. We’re not. And especially for those of us who are current or former athletes, we have to speak up.

by Rohit Doel ​for The 44 North

Guest Writer

Rohit is a poet & disability justice activist. Connect with him on Instagram, here.


Rohit, wearing a galaxy-patterned long-sleeve top, holding a guitar painted with Vincent Van Gogh’s “Starry Night."
Rohit, wearing a galaxy-patterned long-sleeve top, holding a guitar painted with Vincent Van Gogh’s “Starry Night."

"Always look for the light when trapped in the Darkness" —Rohit

“We all need equal access and opportunity, and that includes disabled people! If it doesn’t, none of us will succeed in this life. None of us will be free. Disabled people deserve their own independence and the life they dream about living, without being vilified for their existence and needs.

Spoiler…I’m terrified…


As a disabled person, I’m worried for the future of disabled people, particularly speaking as a disabled Person of Colour (POC).


In this essay & poem, we'll be discussing what:

  • Disability justice is and what our rights are

  • Cuts to services and important things we need to survive

  • Increased hatred, i.e racism, ableism, etc.

  • What we can do to combat these issues


What is Disability Justice?

Essentially, disability justice centres the most vulnerable and marginalized people in our society: autistic/disabled POC and 2SLGTBQIA+ People. Disability justice also includes discussing important issues like racism, ableism, and transphobia, as well as facing oppression and stigma in everyday society.


Some of the rights disabled people have, which should always be upheld, are:

  • Equal access to education and extra support.

  • The right to not be disadvantaged from opportunities compared to non-disabled people because of disability.

  • Access to important services through work, PIP over here in the U.K., Medicare & Social Security in the U.S., the Canada Disability Benefit, Health Services, the Human Rights Act, and the Equality Act. 

  • The ability to access supports to help us navigate everyday life, such as mobility aids, wheelchairs, or hearing aids.


Cuts to Important Services

Over the past few months, I’ve noticed an ever-increasing surge of potential cuts to disability funding and important services. PIP in the U.K. is being cut, alongside Medicare in the U.S. with the government shutdown. The RCMP Disability Pension Program in Canada is also facing cuts alongside NHS cuts here in the U.K., forcing people back into work they cannot do due to poor health or inaccessible work environments that don’t meet the needs of disabled people.


This needs to be discussed and stopped because all over the world—including Sweden, France, Germany and other countries—cuts to health programs and disability resources (which disabled people specifically rely on to survive) are vital. These supports help make life easier, more viable, and independent. Cutting these services only puts disabled people—like me—in poverty and in turn, kills us. It’s important to maintain access to these public services for the sake of disabled people and their livelihoods.


Increased Hatred

I’ve noticed, as a disabled POC, that I’ve been receiving a lot of racist abuse, ableism (internally from my own community and externally), and have been excluded from key opportunities because I’m autistic and need vital support services like home heating. 


Much of this is sprouting from the hateful language we’re seeing in the media, specifically about immigrants, describing disabled people as “scroungers,” “handicapped,” or the R-slur (and much more).


The sad thing, to me, is that our governments and specific people in power are enabling this language and stirring up waves of hate against others which, to be plain, is unacceptable. So many people have accused me of “not being disabled enough” or told me to “go back to my own country.” I’ve heard racist jabs from others as well as folks in the disabled community. This reminds me of how deeply we’ve internalised ableism/racism. It still exists. Hatred to the 2SLGBTQIA+ community still exists. Transphobia and Homophobia are rising rapidly. Too many have the power to limit our rights and dehumanise us. Which is not okay. Let’s take it back!


What can we do to combat this?

  • Call on your government and policymakers to express kindness not hate

  • Stand up to the anti-disability hate and anti-immigration sentiments when you hear, see, or read them in person and online

  • Educate others on important issues happening in your community, because they’re often connected to disability rights and justice

  • Don’t accidentally support cuts to vital services—disabled people like me rely on them for survival! 

  • Be empathetic and spread the message that disabled people matter

  • Don’t encourage forcing people into work—focus on ways to support disabled people with their condition/access requirements to work how and when they’re ready

  • Educate people in your circle about disability justice


These may be hopeful, wishful thoughts, but let’s be real together: everyone should be pro-disability!


Conclusion

To conclude, we need to engage in disability justice together to combat racism, ableism, hate, and discrimination. Equally externally and internally, cuts to important services cannot continue. We all need equal access and opportunity, and that includes disabled people! If it doesn’t, none of us will succeed in this life. None of us will be free. Disabled people deserve their own independence and the life they dream about living, without being vilified for their existence and needs. 


I will leave us here with a little poem that speaks volumes to what's happening right now, and how I feel:


Illuminous rainbows

Fainting Daisies

Why must my existence 

 curve with sorrow


Long waiting times at the hospital

feeling bruises all over

my body feels brittle

exhausted fighting for justice


Rainbows full of colour

signal disability pride

This is our hour, our euphoria

yet my chest feels so sour


Why the hate

when I’ve been your mate 

in identity, culture, origin 

we can’t erase 


Just like you 

can’t erase an existence


I’m disabled and I’m proud 


and will continue to be 


always, lovingly forever

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