It's hard to try and remember who I was before the pandemic.

Humans go through some pretty terrible experiences. Tragic death. Trauma. Horrific events. When this happens, it’s normal to go through a wide range of complex feelings as you try to adapt to life in the aftermath of such experiences. It can feel confusing and hurtful when people respond by telling you to just think positively and to look for the "silver linings".

Growing up as both a competitive dancer and track and field runner, I often felt like I wasn’t strong or muscular enough as the other dancers in my class or the runners on my team. Instead, I believed I was “too” skinny and constantly put myself down for not fitting in. On the other hand, whenever I went on social media, images of bikini models flooded my screen, making me wonder if perhaps I wasn’t skinny enough.