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by Mikaela Brewer for The 44 North

Senior Editor


Mikaela Brewer (left) playing college basketball
Mikaela Brewer (left) playing college basketball
"It’s not trans women who are the threat—it’s a surveillance-based, misogynist patriarchy. It’s never been about who’s playing the sport—it’s about which men have policing and decision-making power across women’s sports. It’s not about fairness at all. It’s about maintaining a culture of control under the guise of fairness."

As a white, cisgender woman, I had biological advantages playing basketball. But no one threatened my right or ability to exist because of it. I was a bit of a nuisance on the basketball court—in the best way. I’m ~5’10” (probably closer to 6’0” in basketball shoes), but my wingspan is over 6’2,” and I could borrow my 6’4” teammates’ jeans. On defence, I deflected many passes that the other team’s point guard didn’t think I could reach or get to in time. But I did. With such long arms and legs—a “biological advantage”—why didn’t I have to prove my gender to play for Stanford University or Team Canada? Because what’s happening to trans women in sports right now isn’t about biological advantage. It’s about policing women’s bodies. And it always has been.


For our July/August 2024 issue at The 44 North, I wrote a short story titled Hope Tracks, a fictional narrative about two high school students, siblings Lena and Sam, as they prepare for track season. One morning, before their first run of the upcoming school year, the two confront one another in their family kitchen—one sibling is a trans woman, and the other’s curiosity isn’t neutral. The story explores mental health, community, activism, friendships, misinformation, family, high school, and racism. I’d love for you to read it, especially now as trans people—particularly women and non-binary athletes—are violently and invasively attacked and investigated. It’s a vehement myth that this isn’t happening in Canada. It very much is.


Via CBC News: Alberta’s new ban on trans women athletes (12+) will not only require schools, universities and sports clubs to exclude and bar trans women and girls from competing, but report and investigate—via the athlete’s sex on their birth records—eligibility complaints to the government, including the results of the challenge. This ban impacts nearly 90 sports organizations in Alberta. It requires an athlete’s parent or guardian to “confirm in writing that the athlete qualifies under the law to play in a female league.” Boards will be encouraged and empowered to impose “reasonable sanctions” against any “bad faith” challenges launched.


Alberta’s United Conservative Party government says the ban seeks to safeguard the “integrity of female athletic competitions by ensuring women and girls have the opportunity to compete in "biological female-only divisions.”” Further, Linda Blade, a coach and former president of Athletics Alberta, said the ban is “not anti trans, it's not anti-anything. It's pro-women.” Please read more here: Birth records will be key in Alberta's new ban on female trans athletes, regulations show (CBC News), Alberta’s transgender ban in sports exempts visiting out-of-province athletes (Global News), Liberal government 'monitoring' Alberta law banning trans athletes from female sports (National Post). 


These regulations are immeasurably harmful and violent. And they’re not at all “pro women.” In Hope Tracks, Lena shares a quote from Schuyler Bailar, the first trans D1 NCAA men’s athlete: 


“People often forget that in order to exclude trans women, you must police all bodies in the women’s category. Any girl or woman can be accused of being transgender. At what point is a girl “too good,” “too masculine,” or “too tall,” or “too strong,” or “too fast” to be accused of being trans? The attempt to exclude trans women is the legal enforcement of the policing of all women’s bodies. And this disproportionately affects those of colour, especially Black women and girls who already suffer anti-Blackness and misogyny (misogynoir) and are often portrayed as not woman enough due to white supremacy. Ask yourself: Who is ‘woman enough?’ The inclusion of trans girls in girls’ sports does not threaten girls’ sports. Instead, the exclusion of trans girls leads to the destruction of girls’ sport through the enforcement of misogynistic and racist standards of girls’ bodies.”


Further, Violet Stanza’s video excellently and thoughtfully notes that research on “biological advantage,” often applied to sports, comes from the military. Via military data, after two years on HRT, trans women raced the mile similarly to cis women, and after four years, matched max sit-ups in a minute. 


Importantly, Stanza asked another question that haunts me: will we only accept trans women in sports if they’re not competitive—if they’re ‘bad?’ Is this what we should be telling trans women—and because this fight isn’t about who is more ‘pro-women’—all women? That they should only ever aspire to mediocrity so as not to be ‘transvestigated?’ 


There will always be biological advantages in sports—height, weight, wingspan, shoulder width, etc. And truthfully, the real threat is embedded in the anti-trans rhetoric and catch phrase: “Keep men out of women’s sports.” It’s not trans women who are the threat—it’s a surveillance-based, misogynist patriarchy. It’s never been about who’s playing the sport—it’s about which men have policing and decision-making power across women’s sports. It’s not about fairness at all. It’s about maintaining a culture of control under the guise of fairness.


So let me answer Schuyler’s question: when did I feel afraid or threatened? It was when my sexuality was pried into, my food intake monitored, or my body fat and weight weaponized. It was when I was reminded of my ‘selfish’ choice to clash being an athlete with being an ‘acceptable’ woman, ‘jeopardizing’ motherhood. It’s each of these wrapping around our throats, choking what women can do and who women can be into such a thin straw that it becomes a feeding tube. We may have forgotten it’s there because we can’t taste it, thinking we’re safe and protected. We’re not. And especially for those of us who are current or former athletes, we have to speak up.

by Rohit Doel ​for The 44 North

Guest Writer

Rohit is a poet & disability justice activist. Connect with him on Instagram, here.


Rohit, wearing a galaxy-patterned long-sleeve top, holding a guitar painted with Vincent Van Gogh’s “Starry Night."
Rohit, wearing a galaxy-patterned long-sleeve top, holding a guitar painted with Vincent Van Gogh’s “Starry Night."

"Always look for the light when trapped in the Darkness" —Rohit

“We all need equal access and opportunity, and that includes disabled people! If it doesn’t, none of us will succeed in this life. None of us will be free. Disabled people deserve their own independence and the life they dream about living, without being vilified for their existence and needs.

Spoiler…I’m terrified…


As a disabled person, I’m worried for the future of disabled people, particularly speaking as a disabled Person of Colour (POC).


In this essay & poem, we'll be discussing what:

  • Disability justice is and what our rights are

  • Cuts to services and important things we need to survive

  • Increased hatred, i.e racism, ableism, etc.

  • What we can do to combat these issues


What is Disability Justice?

Essentially, disability justice centres the most vulnerable and marginalized people in our society: autistic/disabled POC and 2SLGTBQIA+ People. Disability justice also includes discussing important issues like racism, ableism, and transphobia, as well as facing oppression and stigma in everyday society.


Some of the rights disabled people have, which should always be upheld, are:

  • Equal access to education and extra support.

  • The right to not be disadvantaged from opportunities compared to non-disabled people because of disability.

  • Access to important services through work, PIP over here in the U.K., Medicare & Social Security in the U.S., the Canada Disability Benefit, Health Services, the Human Rights Act, and the Equality Act. 

  • The ability to access supports to help us navigate everyday life, such as mobility aids, wheelchairs, or hearing aids.


Cuts to Important Services

Over the past few months, I’ve noticed an ever-increasing surge of potential cuts to disability funding and important services. PIP in the U.K. is being cut, alongside Medicare in the U.S. with the government shutdown. The RCMP Disability Pension Program in Canada is also facing cuts alongside NHS cuts here in the U.K., forcing people back into work they cannot do due to poor health or inaccessible work environments that don’t meet the needs of disabled people.


This needs to be discussed and stopped because all over the world—including Sweden, France, Germany and other countries—cuts to health programs and disability resources (which disabled people specifically rely on to survive) are vital. These supports help make life easier, more viable, and independent. Cutting these services only puts disabled people—like me—in poverty and in turn, kills us. It’s important to maintain access to these public services for the sake of disabled people and their livelihoods.


Increased Hatred

I’ve noticed, as a disabled POC, that I’ve been receiving a lot of racist abuse, ableism (internally from my own community and externally), and have been excluded from key opportunities because I’m autistic and need vital support services like home heating. 


Much of this is sprouting from the hateful language we’re seeing in the media, specifically about immigrants, describing disabled people as “scroungers,” “handicapped,” or the R-slur (and much more).


The sad thing, to me, is that our governments and specific people in power are enabling this language and stirring up waves of hate against others which, to be plain, is unacceptable. So many people have accused me of “not being disabled enough” or told me to “go back to my own country.” I’ve heard racist jabs from others as well as folks in the disabled community. This reminds me of how deeply we’ve internalised ableism/racism. It still exists. Hatred to the 2SLGBTQIA+ community still exists. Transphobia and Homophobia are rising rapidly. Too many have the power to limit our rights and dehumanise us. Which is not okay. Let’s take it back!


What can we do to combat this?

  • Call on your government and policymakers to express kindness not hate

  • Stand up to the anti-disability hate and anti-immigration sentiments when you hear, see, or read them in person and online

  • Educate others on important issues happening in your community, because they’re often connected to disability rights and justice

  • Don’t accidentally support cuts to vital services—disabled people like me rely on them for survival! 

  • Be empathetic and spread the message that disabled people matter

  • Don’t encourage forcing people into work—focus on ways to support disabled people with their condition/access requirements to work how and when they’re ready

  • Educate people in your circle about disability justice


These may be hopeful, wishful thoughts, but let’s be real together: everyone should be pro-disability!


Conclusion

To conclude, we need to engage in disability justice together to combat racism, ableism, hate, and discrimination. Equally externally and internally, cuts to important services cannot continue. We all need equal access and opportunity, and that includes disabled people! If it doesn’t, none of us will succeed in this life. None of us will be free. Disabled people deserve their own independence and the life they dream about living, without being vilified for their existence and needs. 


I will leave us here with a little poem that speaks volumes to what's happening right now, and how I feel:


Illuminous rainbows

Fainting Daisies

Why must my existence 

 curve with sorrow


Long waiting times at the hospital

feeling bruises all over

my body feels brittle

exhausted fighting for justice


Rainbows full of colour

signal disability pride

This is our hour, our euphoria

yet my chest feels so sour


Why the hate

when I’ve been your mate 

in identity, culture, origin 

we can’t erase 


Just like you 

can’t erase an existence


I’m disabled and I’m proud 


and will continue to be 


always, lovingly forever

By Abbigale Kernya for The 44 North

Managing Editor


Charlie Kirk speaking into a microphone
Charlie Kirk speaking into a microphone
"What began as a goal to further the reach of conservative ideology on college campuses evolved into a right-wing pipeline that grounded itself in exploiting marginalized communities and inciting violence against anyone who dared to call out the deplorable white supremacist behaviour."

On September 10th, 2025, American Conservative podcaster Charlie Kirk was fatally shot at Utah Valley University on the first stop of his “Prove Me Wrong” campus tour. Kirk, who made his career founding Turning Point USA and debating college students on campus about controversial topics like abortion, same-sex marriage, transgender existence, and the right to bear arms, has left behind a legacy that continues to polarize and divide. 

 

Kirk’s final words that afternoon perhaps speak most of all to his work, where he riled up the MAGA crowd in attendance—fearmongering about transgender gang violence—moments before he was fatally shot by a rifle 200 yards away. The suspect charged is 22-year-old Tyler Robinson, whose motives remain unknown at the time of writing, despite republican claims his actions were a blatant attack from the left. 

 

It is without question that no matter Kirk’s controversial and bigoted stance, nobody ‘deserves’ to die by gun violence. This remains true, even after Kirk plainly stated in 2023 that he supported civilian casualties to protect and uphold the Second Amendment right to bear arms. The outcry following his assassination is as polarizing as it is frightening. Far right MAGA leaders are calling on violence towards the left (or, their “political opponents”) and conspiracy theories are headlining mainstream media, stating that this shooting was somehow a result of transgender violence—the same “violence” Kirk conspiratized seconds before the fatal shot. 

 

And yet, on the same day Kirk was shot and killed on campus, an elementary school in Illinois was attacked by a lone gunman, marking the 146th American school shooting in 2025, as Kirk became the same “civilian casualty” he supported.

 

Kirk’s platform was built on oppression and harm to anyone who wasn’t a straight, white, Christian, middle-class American cis-male. It can be hard to feel empathy for someone who would not give you the same courtesy. Empathy, which, in Kirk’s own words, was seen as a made-up emotion.

 

Right-wing extremism has been rising steadily in America, bleeding the harmful rhetoric mainstreamed by people like Kirk into nearly every crevice of the West. When the news broke that Kirk had succumbed to his fatal shot, the response heard everywhere from the internet to sports venues was shocking, to say the least. 

 

This is not to say that Kirk deserved what he got—nobody, no matter which side of the political line they stand on, deserves to be murdered in broad daylight. Nobody deserves to witness bloodshed, and in breaking down the hypocrisies of republican outcry, it is not a pro-firearm message. Rather, it’s one that aims to draw light toward the mass mourning of a white supremacist podcaster who made a career demonizing marginalized communities under the guise of “free speech” and the right to have your own opinion.

 

The irony of this whole situation is hidden under the calls for violence and continued “us vs. them” rhetoric, steeped in racist comparisons between Kirk and the murder of George Floyd, to further blame the left for his assassination. However, the argument that one must feel sorry for Kirk is somewhat missing the mark in this conversation. Especially given that Kirk himself advocated for public executions, saying they should be televised to children and sponsored by major corporations like Coca-Cola. It comes as somewhat ironic, then, that the conversation around his death is spiralling into that of a memorialized martyr who died for his own opinion, not one that aims to look at the broader picture of the violence he made a career out of. 

 

Kirk’s advocacy for the right to one’s own “opinion” is a trapdoor that invites unsuspecting viewers through the guise of free speech into the chasm of extremist ideology. As a reminder, an opinion is whether or not you like summer over winter, or what TV show deserved an Emmy Award, or how you like your eggs cooked. An opinion is not whether or not you believe the Jim Crow laws were a good thing for the Black community, or that women aren’t capable of holding equal careers to men, or that transgender people are dangerous, bloodthirsty criminals. Charlie Kirk did not die for his opinion. He held no ‘opinions’ that were not factually incorrect or spewed in the pursuit of a divided country, fueled by hatred and fear. 

 

His “Prove me Wrong” tour would be the final act in his legacy of rage-baiting college students into falling for the ultra-right-wing pipeline, spinning every disadvantage young people face into a calling card for bigotry and white-supremacy. It is extremely telling how school shootings and the rise of hate speech in North America have become so normalized that they’ve become desensitized to mainstream media. On the afternoon of Charlie Kirk’s shooting, when a man armed with a semi-automatic weapon opened fire in an elementary school in Illinois, the narrative instead became focused on protecting the legacy of someone who didn’t believe in equal rights based on “freedom of expression” rather than the epidemic of gun violence that is plaguing America.

 

The truth is, if people were truly outraged that this horrific act of gun violence cost Kirk his life, a conversation of change would spark. Instead, conversations around further demonizing left-leaning voters and the trans community have infiltrated online forums. Additionally, we’ve seen countless examples where anyone speaking out against the hypocrisy of Kirk’s shooting is facing harassment and, in increasingly frequent cases, being fired from their employment after speaking against Charlie Kirk's “opinions.”

 

How have we strayed so far from the plot that merely bringing attention to the hypocrisy and somewhat ironic nature of September 12th is an act of war against the right-wing? To say that you don’t support what happened to Charlie Kirk, but Charlie Kirk (by his own words) supported what happened to him, has become controversial—as if his platform was built around not only protecting the Second Amendment, but also advocating for looser gun restrictions. 

 

How can one mourn Charlie Kirk and ignore the victims of his rhetoric?

 

What began as a goal to further the reach of conservative ideology on college campuses evolved into a right-wing pipeline that grounded itself in exploiting marginalized communities and inciting violence against anyone who dared to call out the deplorable white supremacist behaviour. 

 

To truly mourn Charlie Kirk must mean you mourn all victims of gun violence. 

 

To mourn him as a father, as a husband, is to also mourn the innocent families ripped apart by ICE raids.

 

To mourn him as a political activist for free speech is to also mourn the journalists murdered in Gaza who died documenting a genocide. 

 

To mourn Charlie Kirk is to mourn victims of violence perpetuated with hands cradling guns and microphones. 

 

To mourn him is to mourn trans people and childbearing folks who have died due to lack of access to gender affirming care and abortion resources.

 

You cannot pick and choose your martyr. 


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